I cant seem to write my thoughts out anymore.
I feel like a closed book so restricted.
I miss you.

Everything you speak about, your l i f e and how a guy would be lucky (or so, you say) to be with me many a times I have walked in circle to realise that what you have became is what I have become.

Its a freshly new cut.

THERE IS JUST SO MUCH THAT IS HAPPENING.

HOW CAN I WHO HARDLY PMS, END UP PMSING SO BADLY.

HOW CAN I WHO HARDLY FLARES BE THROWING MY TEMPER AROUND.

HOW CAN I WHO HARDLY HAVE MOODSWINGS BE MOODY ALL THE TIME.

AND MOST OF ALL,

HOW CAN I BE SO AFRAID TO LOSE THE LIFE THAT I NOW HAVE.
TO LOSE A PERSON I ALREADY HAVE LOST.
TO DREAM OF THE DEAD, DYING.

I just need you to stand by me.
We used to share our worlds and we may be travelling to two different worlds
but all i need is.

you, to stand by me.
cause im just so afraid, tomorrow i may not be alive.
im just so afraid, my roof is going to crack.
im just so afraid, its gonna flood and i cant swim.

most of all,
im just so afraid i will not be able to live a life of a teenager
because for the past four years, i have been standing on my own feet..

im tired.

thanks to Dheep,

I feel like I'm having retail therapy. New phone, new hairdo, new bag, new tops, new shoes, new jacket!!! Thanks d so much. It feels like I've been rewarded these for my hard work hee.

Colour me pretty.

dearest precious,

the first time I cried this whole year had to be today as much as i could have avoided the tears they just naturally fell.. It was guilt that I I inflicted pain on someone unintentionally. Well all is done, I couldve at least done something to ease the pain but no, I didn't and for that second, I was L O S T .

Its quite painfuL for me to reflect on ,e and my own life.. I've grown to be such a soft hearted person in the last to years. Why? What happened? Oh well , good job girl, at least you are a whole lot more stronger today than last year.. For sure. *pats my shoulder*

February is here.. Time for roller coaster ride number #1 cause I know its gonna happen all over again. Transfer, coping with hectic schedules.. Please don't let me slip away..

dearest precious,

I have officially sold my htc touch and bought the e71... i feel totally bad for initially not wanting to lend this baby to max.. On second thoughts... How can i not share with max the things that brings me great joy .. Nevertheless.. I love it already so its mine!!!!!


Max is away .. Enjoying himself at bintan, i wish he had activated his roaming despite the hefty charges.. Well at least i wont feel incomplete, me not able to whine and annoy the shit outta him. . .

attended kish"s birthday.. without a choice i had to see a particular human species which i hope i never have to ever meet again... had awesome food there and spent some time with the birthday kiddo.

& then aaron picked me up from under e blk, we headed to town where the cousin & friends joined us. They were disturbing this poor fella... With me. Haaa. They,re trying to start up their maTCh making business.. And is starting with me... Lol

Sleeeeeeepy
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Dearest precious

Life is a maze. At one point, you find yourself at the start point. and just when you think you were reaching the end point you realize that you're lost somewhere along the way. It's probably a huge maze?

Whichever. The point is, life is a huge maze.

As of lately, i have been spending quality time with the cousin and his friends. They're mad mad mad people hell lot of fun. They're going over to melb to spend some time with my sister in march (without me) or maybe, i should go along! *hmmmmmm*

SO MY transfer is confirmed and id be going.. and then life will start to change because id even double busier than whatever I am now. believe it? I cant even hog the phone the way i do right now? But i guess its gng to be more challenging so im comingg!!!

MOTHER. NAG. EAR.HURTS.

// painted nails are still drying!!


SUPER RANDOM.

EXQUISITE FEMME
IM VERY GAY :D
I ♥ my babyboy
I ♥ my girlfriends.
here it comes a beautiful collision
is happening now there seems no end
to where You begin and there I am now
here it comes, you and I collide♥

Now that I've found you, I cant let you go. I build my world around you, cause I need you so. Baby,even though you dont need me.♥
THE REST, FOR YOU TO FIGURE IT OUT!