YAY! /
i'm home!/
indeed a real tiring working-day yet super funn!/

i took up the clifford marathon-ntuc ushering job with my sister's friendss/
namely, JAYSHREE,VISHNU,MENAKA,KAVIKUMAR/
:)
there' were plentyy others/
ninteen of us - happily working together in the god damn hot sun/
we were supposed to head to PS to meet up with my sister/
and then go to the new CATHAY theatre near peace centre/
however, i backed off last minute because/
i really was feeling very exhausted!
PLUS, i needed to meet my sister CHRISTIN for short shopping spree.
HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY TO YOU SWEETS!
yay i want to spend time with her.
so here i go.

haven't been able to catch up with my friends/
we all shall catch up soon.
=D

dear girlfriend,
ISA, im completely touched/
that was sucha' lovely msg!/
i couldn't sleep after reading HAHA-!
heartsyoutoo/
from, boyfriend. hehex

im so touched/
i never knew i could have a brand new life/
with my my old friends, people who once knew me/
with plenty of new friends/
damn im loving life.
navin anneh is so sweet larh (:
so glad to have him around/
Thanks for everythign anneh!
and you too, LAXHMI, great to get back intouch agn

nights

If others offer you a free ride today, take it. It's just karma coming back to you.

i really hope my friends are doing well/

physically,mentally,and healthy!/

get well soon, to those who are sick/

i'll pray for the safety and strength for all/

:))

Jane called me for part time job/

this sunday i'll be ushering at some marathon starting from 7am/

which means, i'll not be going to church/

sad sad/

it'll be my sister's birthday!!! damn!/

it's okay, i was told to pull along twoboys with me/

they are in need of people,/

and i know just who to call, but won't my two dearies me tired aftr jg?/

hmmp! well, im going to earn afew buckss for this ushering!/

plus, im going to grow redder and darker .

-off to temple.

okay so mokan tagged along/
everything went great/

joker la he/

jessie, it was so good seeing you after so long!/

i know we used to meet every single day,but now../

once a week or not at all/

so sad, but guess this is life!/

tkkaire always see you soon!

:(

I headed to ngeeann at 5+/
to help mokan choose blazar/
well, i was dying of boredom larh/

met up with pratheep/

yok and mohan were there too/

saw MTK :)

after settling the blazar issues we slacked at canteen1/
along with laxhmi and nanthini/
geex/
navin and friends were happily 'whistling' away/
to call me, hahaz/

so funny, yes anneh nice stylu'

so many things happened today/

i'm just happy for everyone and myself/

i'm just contended/

i sort of sat in during the rehearsal and ics PRO meeting/

i could feel the tension in the atmosphere/

it's very normal i guess/

i saw KAYYA! APPEH! amir and all the usuals../

prabu chittapa! double M and all the rest/
subash anneh too, although he didnt recogn me, i did!/

basically i was just sitting down with sindu&sudha + laxhmi/
bitching away together/

raazi's way of practicsing his lines was so cute!

w-u-t-e-v-e-r-s!
thanks for the opportunity and requests/

appreciated them!

i saw this girl, who looked EXACTLY like agatha on first looks/
i was like peeking at her while she gave me glances/

so alike, the size hair complexion../
aww, i miss agu!/
rushed back home in the cabby with pratheep!/
Sorry da, your hp batt is with me =[!/

geex.

agatha,mok,shankari - get well soon!/

when i make a promise, i'm a person who lives up to it :)

Been editing my old blogskins and loading them to the server/
I can't live this pace of life/

i know there's many interesting things to do/

i'm going to hold on to the job/

real soon/

and kill two months of time/

I CAN'T WAIT FOR SCHOOL!!/

oh,incase i didn't mention/

samantha xinya is taking up the same course as me in SIM!/

revathi is also taking up course at SIM/

this is the best part for we're family friends, neighbours/

we can head to school together as well/

mokan, is very sick/

aiyoo, get well soon!/

i'm heading to ngeeann to pickup some stuff for him/

and also meet my cousin a bus stop away/

plus,drop by for tutoring on the way!/

now,suddenly i feel so busy, i lioke!
AGATHA is sick too/

something's up with her ears/

been unable to contact her/

well, my sweets tkkaire/

i'll pray for faster recovery!

lifes full of surprises!

Why is it that in every decision i make/
regarding my life/

i end up being the only happy person/

whereas everyone around me /

gets so hurt about it?/

why is it that, my decisions only benefit me/

for a shortperiod of time?/

i always end up HURTING the people around me/

with my decisionss/
why?

im feeling GUILTY/
very very guilty/
i can't hide something from my friend/
well, its a no big deal actually/
it's as easy as a snap of the fingers/
but still, should i tell or should i not?
state of confusion/
like always.

why is it that the one's i hurt the most, are the most who love me so much?/

why is it such a way, the i have every solution for EVERYONE but myself?/

oooh i'm popping out so many questions/
it takes two to play a game/

and both pays the price/

but guess it's me who's paying the biggest price :)/

i'l tell you the truth/
for i can't hide or lie to my friend/
one day you'll understand/
that what i went through was what you were going through/
oh babeyyy!/
I pray the truth does no harm to anyone/
afterall it's history!

I woke up and headed to meet SERI ATIKAH! :) /

so long since i met her larh!/

I love this sweet heart soo much/

til today i have a picture of the two of us on my study-table/

we went JOB HUNTING/

. it wasn't very successful although we did hunt/

the bottom line, i had so much of fun with my sweety!!/

*hughug* /

YAY!

At 3pm i headed to ngeeann cus i promised pratheep i'll turn up/

Met with my dearestt agatha first and the rest came one by one/

Aww, sweets so glad to see you again!/

Just so happy to have you around me :) !! /

Pratheep and mokan & I slacked together having so much of fun./

These two bestie sweets of mine, ahh, they never fail to make me laughh./

I finally met MUKESH the guy who added me via friendster. /

Good to see you, nice to have you in our accompany=D/

. BARATHI littleboy , yOk & mohan joined us too./

& yeah, luckieboy visited me as well./

Saw junaida,kkayya,saravanan,sudha,shangari,shankari/
amir,puven,loges,nav,harri, n so many otherss./

IF ONLY I REACHED ON TIME! & then i could have met LAXHMI :)))/

Saw adam and chingying as well. /

hahax, adam didn't notice me waving over to him/

and after soooo long he said hi hahaz. /

good to see ya despite the fact you just live opposite my window!/

gaga. /

Jerome was the cutestt/

Learning the fact that we both were at canteen one,/

he ranaway saying his hair isnt done so he cant see pretty girl hahaz/

Yeah, navin anneh hope you happy alreadyy :))

Thanks mokiii & pratheep-/

the two dearies who never fail to make me so happy./

and thanks for imitating my WALK! /

luv you both soo much! /

Well love everyone lah kays./

loving life the most../

i love the teeshirt i was wearing/
black with hotpink/

which read/
LOVE NEVER FAILS
/* the tee i was wearing today,black with hot pink read '' LOVE NEVER FAILS ''

BEAUTIFULANGEL &
Allow me, to only blog about the bestest part of my day/

Everyday's getting beautiful.

Was slacking at home day long until SIM ringed me up/

Dragged myself and met up with mokan & rehuboy/

who skipped their orientation halfway/

On my way there/

i saw nitthi and also managed to catch up with /

APPEH RAJ, ANNEH NAV, sindhu,amir,shankari/

sutha,sara,barathi and luckie/

double yayness !

NAV annehh, i'll keep the promise *smiles*

Omg! I cannot tahan mokan anymore/

im so going to BLOWUP!/

hahas that sweet thing can't stop YELLING/

or making ugly noises./

*smacks* his head. /

& rehuboy, lame as usual ((: /

*gags/

Headed to my cousin's place. /

Where' little nephews and nieces were. /

BABIES & KIDS are just so cute. /

I love rishi soo much cause he's such a darling./

Although he wont be reading this, i wana blog about him anyway/

Darling, I know you felt so jealous when i was playing with your baby sister and my baby cousin brother. I know you feel so left out when they steal your spot light. Despite everything, you never fail to make me smile with your smooches. Sweetie i love ya so much. You're a big boy already and so you must take care of your baby siblings. You'll always be my first darling aightt! My sis in law and all were taking picts of me and baby asha. Well, this malayalee sweetie of mine looks EXACTLY like me,when i was a baby. Looking at her was like looking at my baby pictures come alife. My sis in law while showering asha actually called her 'revathi' HAHAS. /wutevers. After having plenty of fun over at anneh's place he drove us to ammama's house. I love them alot larhs.

SHOUT OUTS
Now that i've got agatha back into my life/

you know i feel akward going pass a day without seeing you online/

or receiving a message from ya. i don't know why.

what i thought i let go has came back. =[
Gags. I'll have to let you go, from here.

Woke up at 8am to look up the papers for jobs/

Headed to NP & SIM at about 11 with mokan/

Did whatever was neccessary and headed to YHSS/

I just pulled mok along with me/

cus' i wanted to surprise/

JESSIE,AIN & CELX. [ thanks mokii! ]/

Very much a surprise [=

When agatha messaged me to meet her/

i SWEAR! i soo wanted to meet her that very very moment!/

But then i had somethings to commit to/

which i've been neglecting for some time/

so i disciplined myself hahas/

sorry sweets!

I lost not only 'that' you, but a wonderful friend/

This is the path I took, the decision made were to hurt/

Now everyone's got their own paths of life/

When you close your eyes to think/

it feels like they were just by you seconds ago/

- and when you open your eyes/

you learn that they're just so far far away/

They hardly care now/

Maybe they do care/

and maybe we're always on each other's minds/

but life is such where people come and go/

and at the end of the day the ones who stays/

are your family members/

And i realised, I can't accept the fact/

that one simply walks in and out of your life/

never to come back again/

.For every walkers of my life-/

made a difference in me someways.

Too much silence,may be MISLEADING/
i hate it,but i love it/
now readers, you know how flickle i can get/
everything seems to be drifting/
despite the hurtings/
i can't wait for new happenings!

Hogged the phone through the night/
with my dearest luckieboy/
he's just this motivator of mine/
someone who never fails to encourage me/
to walk towards the light/
:)

been up so early, waiting for mokan!/
sleeping beauty!/
we headed to ngeeann to settle his stuffs/
spent time at canteentwo along with kumutha & praba/
then to SIM /
and back to ngeeann to collect his lappy :)

it was a wonderful day with you my buddy!/
thanks for all da/
*hughug*

*Charis sent me this lyric '' drugs dont work'' /
so sad!

I thought i recovered already/

sadly last night when i got off the sofa/

i fainted/
after awhile, i headed to my bed/
there was this very excruciating pain/
ah,yes like brain tumor!/

ah,who cares anyway/

Rain or Shine, always mine/

I see myself indulging in very diplomatic conversations/

It makes you think alot and answer very intellectually/

Although, most of the times I'm at the losing end /

it keeps my brain thinking! /

I've spent an expired six hours chatting/

Now, can you believe that?/

Well, while transfering the things inside my phone to memory card/

I managed to retrieve lots of very personal messages/

I could just cry over these messages/

boy oh boy/

those' were the days/

the sweet sweet stuffs/

*slaps!* /

Its been raining very heavily/

Very much beautifully/

I could hear the raindrops tapping at my window/

The lightening brightened my room/

The atmosphere was quiet and dead/

except for the sound of the rain tapping/

Everything up in my head seemed so alive/

okay wutevers!

/and i soo /
*whee! tmr is easter!

It's rainging ; so heavily/
Yet so lovelily/
Nothing smells and looks much more beautiful/
The feeling *bites lips*/
I love walking in the rain/
Cause no one notices when you're crying/
I love the rain/
Cause it reminds me of you/
I love the rain/
cus' it's nature at its bestt/
I love to cuddle around my lovedoness/
when its raining cus' theres nothing more beautiful/
than the warmth from all of them YUM!/

here i come prettyboy./

What's much lovelier than sitting in the rain together!/

heartsyoulikenobodyelse.

What's in the past is not part of your life any more.

I guess i'm being ridiculously stubborn/

I can't welcome changes in lifes/

It's like trying to melt a hardboiled egged/

I wasdetermined/

I'm like in a pickle not knowing how to correctly react/

Perhaps, I've over reacted/

making somewhat a fool outta myself, and you/

What are the baffles about now!??/

Predominantly, anyone setting foot in my place/

would just go speechless to finally learn how fast things happen/

in just at a blink of the eye/

The used to be boisterous/

fearless and very independent little girl/

who grew up to become dependent/

on the ones she set her soul upon/

I thought i was finished/

but i think it all have just have begun/

what happened behind the scene no one knows/

you won't understand when i myself don't/

Things with no explaination/

I'll take it as it goes/

I'll take it as it comes/

I don't know the real reason but i grant what ya'll want/

When things go wrong/

everyone blames each other/

The promises were made, but time places its back on mine/

I see the promises breaking/

It's very easy to promise and get out of something/

but after being out of it/

it's never easy keeping the promise ain't it/

The game was long over/

It's not like only this author goes through difficulties /

and obstacles hurts and deeper hurts/

everyone's got their own plot/

And i make myself sound overly troubled /

and like a complete loser. Hah! /

I don't know why but im blabbering just a little pissed/

And here on, i grow up.-finally/

What i feared most in the 16years of my life came true/

very karmatic for it hit me just the way i hit someone else/

HAHAHA!/

guess what i don't care for rat's ass sake.

I did as i say, and yeah i burnt my past/

healed the wounds/

left the regrets/

and soon you'll watch me glow/

in that dark dark room/

I learnt everything happens for a reason/

Everyone has their reasons for every decisions they make as well/

Reasons may hurt for alot/

sometimes but im convinced it happens for good/

so, goodday to all!

fyi; they came glimmering in/

Astonished with such charimatic character and upfront/

this time it ain't a dream it's really happening/

YAY!! /

no one can be happier than i have ever been. [[=

The one thing that lets me down, each and everytime is Love/

If anyone saw a tear roll down my cheeks, the only reason would be because of love/

Love here, not neccessarily means the love involved between a male and a female/

I'm refering to the affection between family, friends and relatives/

The fellow loved ones/

I don't know about ya'll but i'm someone who'll never let down my loved ones/

I always put my lovedones before me/

Even if i onced love and am isolated from that love today/

i still pray for their well being and put them before me/

But each time around, love hurts me so deeply/

How stupid of me?/

No matter how much my loved can turn me down, i never failed to stand up for them/

That's stupidiy/

And each time around, knowing that i'll always be there for them, they take advantage of me/

I always end up being the one who gets into trouble/

Unnecessary trouble/

It's only today when i realised why/

I don't listen to what my mom has got to say/

When she tells me, don't mix around with this person/

because of whatever particular reason/

the love or relationship i have for them/

blinds my eyes /

and i turn a deaf ear to her/

it's my MISTAKE/

it happened again. and again. and again/

Each time it's me who gets a harder fall/

and a deeper hurt/

and all the bad name/

-for something i actually not do/
I'm sick of this/

I believe in KARMA/
you'll get what you deserve

Now weakness slowly overtakes my strength/
im losing everything/

It's all out of hand/

My body aches and eyes tear/

It happens sometimes/

just when you go through the hardest times in life/

But the good thing i like about myself/

even during the deepest hurt, i can smile/

:)) HAH!

had tutoring/
met up with jes & ish/
i hope to make it for pajamas sleepover/
it's so much of fun, i know!/

dear mokan,
i know i have caused you lots of hurts/
through these few months/
but you never fail to keep on coming/
bringing in the warmth and lovely smiles/

to somebody,
i kow i mean quite alot to you/
you are being overly sensitive and protective/
however, it gives you no rights to bad mouth mokan/

you've got not rights to hurt someone,who means alot to me/
ain't that as good as hurting me?/
think about it!/
wutevers to you!

Dear stephanie Rita rima,
I know its very difficult to manage your relationship/
while being over at england/
Sweety,everything happens as it happens/
we girls, just have to take it all in/
it always happens this way-you see/
I'm awaiting for you r return/
can't wait to meet ya/
you were my sister's enemy/
god made you my friend/
AMEN!

here is the recap of the birthday last night/
AJAY, like every kid looking so cute /
in his birthday suit,specially selected by me&bro/
i loved everything about that night/
there were kids everywhere!

the ever cutest baby there was/
ASHA

she's just so very cute/
and many claim she looks like me when i was a baby/
and very much likely, looking at her/
was like looking at myself/
The way i've seen me in photographs/
my sweet stuff

okay, i threw up that night/
i cried too/
it was so painful/
and my dad kept forcing my to drink gingerbeer!/
i just broke down/
it was like system shutting down!/
i cried myself to sleep/

Today, is palm sunday/
I tried to wake up but each time i fell back into deeper sleeps/
ouch okay!/
I had my lunch with Uncle John & George along with Aunty Crystabelle & Nancy/
so fun,it really was.

BE ORIGINAL!/
you know it - how i abhor people who COPY/
stealing idea is okay/
but what you did, was completely rude.
*ignores

East coast park gathering was a blast/
the moment i saw them.. /

i felt so warm/

tears awaiting to gush out/

it's where we belong:)

had a wonderful time cycling with SARAH in skirts/
yes, i said SARAH/
hold you breathe everyone we're backk/
it was a memorable day with -/
Intan,Jes,FANA,nurnoi,sarah,raudha,fidah,chica,sasha,ain/
thaqif,nas,ashraf,khalid,azan,imran,wan,rudy/
and yay, all the rest who were there :)

sadly i had to leave early along with jessie babes/
memories i'll keep close to my heart/
thanks for this wonderful opportunity/
azan, said rumours says i've got/
DAMN GOODLOOKING HENSUM BOYRIFRNED?/
it sounds so hot , just keep the rumours going hehex/

Tonight is AJAY'S first birthday function @ tekka hall/
I can't wait for it/
there's so much to look forward to/
happy birthday little one!

the very apologetic voice/
kept resounding at the back of my mind/

not scared, i'm worried/

look at how out of hands things has became/

you're so foolish!/

I'm sick and weak/

body and mind/

i can't take anymore of this unneccessary troubles/
you give to me, or my babes/
back off, for she's got my back/

thanks faizal for hearing me out/
appreciated it completely/
the battle of selfishness, cowardness and hurt/

I met Jessie, Sarah,Ain, CElx after their school/
then headed to je bank with jes/
and then went to have our lunch at clementi!/
yummilicious.

After some time we headed to IMM/
met up with AIN,FANA,CELX
we did the bbq shopping!/

It was so much of fun babes!/
* AIN, stop hitting girls! :)

Dear Jes babe,
don't worry about what happened/
We are all going to be by your side/
and make sure nothing happens to you/
I couldn't watch you in despair/
I had to scold the bugger/
there's always limits you see/
whatever we do, is always for your good/
do what you think is right/
we're right behind you/

SHOUTOUT
there's only one person i totally want to meet/
right now!/
and that's simply my besty IPS/
see you tmr honeyy.

the purpose was not for shopping/

it was for urot[massaging]/

Through bukit Indah, to larking to kotaraya/
then finally to gelang patah :) /

Ate lunch at restaurant Hameed/
so yummilicious!!/
It was raining so beautifully/

however the water level was up to my knees!/

the lightings were right infront of my face/

I had to clutch my breast and hold my breath/
it was scary!

I sort of threw up/
So got very hungry again/
and ate lunch once more/
geex/
we caught the movie 'pattiyal'/
and later on did shopping/
yay! i finally got the 3/4 purple bottoms i wanted/
and bought a few tops :)/
yayy, im happy kid!

goodnight,readers

I caught Ice age 2 with Mahesh & My sister/
realy funny movie & funny people :) /
I've been throwing up lately/
oh god, bless me!/
and take this pain away/

it hurts me so bad!

I've learnt to treasure life and cherish every good times/
I learnt never to regret anything - in life/
I learnt the obstacles make me a stronger and better person/
I learn to make the most and best out of my life/
& that's why i'm a happy kid ((:/
Living in an atomsphere full of complexity issues/

i love you more each everyday/
i respect your deeds/
your presence/
and your past/
ups and downs are parts and pieces of love/
it comes in a parcel.

I saw bubbly AIN in the bus/

i love her cuteness! it made me smile/
I met babes and headed to town/

yay.thanks JESSIE for lending me your tee/
when tears of black mascara rolled down my cheek/
when the eyeliner started to smugde/
now that's what i call a real true friend! /
Hohoho, i sabotageddhibx /
:))

Slacked at town den headed to woodlands/
i had complete lot of fun/
thanks babes!

SHOUTOUT
Bonvoyage SASH!

yesterday was my cousin's ROM/
met SARAVANAN!/
so he's not just my friend but also my bro-in-law/
weird, i know/

I finally met hemma [hougang] ((:/
my bestiest cousin ever/
the moment we saw each other we *hugged*/
although we only got close during geja akka's wedding/
and closer through vinod!/
it's as though we've been living in each other world for good years/
yayness darling!
*muackss

i'm heading town with my babes/
agatha, i love ya too!/

-APRIL FOOL'S DAY- a great kickstart to my new month.