Saturday, June 30, 2007
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Dear Precious,
(friday)
Met up with the-np-clan. Cousin Jithen was there as well. Thanks chetan for all the tag-team support against kishore and also for -you-know-what! When was the last time I had a great chat with rehu and mokie, ages I say. And so today was special cause it felt like travelling in the past, like we all used to be during secondary school days! We girls had helluva fun.Esp laughing over baby ally-whatever video. To end the day, had a heartfelt dinner with rehu,mokie,kish and rajboy - under the natural shades which allowed rain drops to drip on us.
the rain, it brings me stories.
Friday, June 29, 2007
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Dear precious,
Ive realized that the reason I blog is because Im in a rut.I dont know where I am heading to and my goals are difficult and far off. Longrun goals, I say. Not much is happening around me even when Im very occupied. I do not expect things to be different, I live life as it is and its a every day challenge to me to bypass each blossoming day. Theres something to learn at the end of every single day. Something to learn about myself, something to learn about the people around me and my environment. I dont exactly know how many days,weeks,years,centuries it'll take to get out of this rut but im certain the process of learning never ends.
A couple of days back, I sat down to read archives. Ive seen myself grow up. Reading it all, i realize that ive grown, really alot. From a silly,hot tempered , temperemental person to someone who puts her head to use. Well, what you see is what you get. Im not a person who hides stuffs infact im someone who is- the same when im with you,you or you. I cant wait to kepe this blog going on although several times I wanted to close it down. In years to come, I'll be reading through the archives again and I'll see that ive come a long way. Ever changing for the better.
Alright I cant wait for school to reopen. Its going to be a huge challenge for me to handle 3jobs maybe more and school. And soar up and do so well just so I can get down to melbourne or london! Yes Bsc__________ ; Im coming to you! I wish not to mention but I cant help it. The reopen of school is going to be an emotional battle for me, or us. I wonder what school will be without you. Hellride, I say. So, Jessie & the dinner gang or part there of will be heading to genting tonight. May you all have a blast and have a safe journey to and fro. Love you people!
Thursday, June 28, 2007
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Dear Precious,
I want my apple laptop.
I cant adapt to- dad bringing my lappy to work and me sharing it with him.
I dont like the 3 desktops in my room.
I want to change it to LCD screen.
I want to get an external hard disk.
My external hardisk has crashed, this is so terrible, all my backups are gone.
I want to get an apple ipod/ creative.
My mp3 is spoil-ing.
I want to get a new handphone.
My two handphones are getting old.
I want to buy a new guitar.
I want to get a sneaker.
I want to buy a diamond ring.
I want so many things and all these I am going to get it on my own, like always!
This entry is so random, im bored!
Saturday, June 23, 2007
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Sentosa trip.
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Nice for the eyes.
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Dear Precious,
[19th june]Slacked at Star's place and in the evening headed to Northpoint for the movie 'sivaji'. As far as I recall it is my first time watching a tamil movie in singapore's theatres. The movie was good. I suffered a backache and neckpain. Reason being, there were others sitting in our seats and we ended up sitting right in front, on the second row. Very Irritating, but we didnt want to create a commotion. yabadabada!
them.
us.
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Dear Precious,
[20th June]
Headed to work and it all went fine. Im not all exactly loving it but the pay is so attractive! Hah! All the fun we three have (: Headed to Np to catch them in act at the street soccer court. Pratheep was there and it was definitely good to see him after really long! I had a good talk to Kayyu and Thamz and all the catching ups with the rest. Headed for dinner. Yes muru, egg cheese prata ONLY.
you make the monsters look so beautiful
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Dear Precious,
[21st June]
After work met with Star and off we were to navin's place. At the begining I felt a little, rather very shy and kept quiet. We all had dinner together and then Aunty sayanged me. You know that feeling of being extremely loved! Yay! Star was busy with the camera whereas I was sitting mingling or stonning with the other Np and Nus people. At the later part of the night we played mafia. OMFG so fun especially since the group is so big! I only stayed for two rounds and both the time, I was the mafia. Guess I dont look innocent enough cause every single person kept suspecting me even mr doctor- star. I cant believe vinod actually mastermind-planned and recorded everything.(that explains why they suspect me!) Nevertheless, I had so much of fun and being in the midst of navin's family was just a pleasure.
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Dear Precious,
[22nd June]
Okay so I woke up at 6ish and met star and all we ended up doing is to sleep from morning til 7ish in the evening. And then have dinner. Im not a heavy sleeper so I was either half awake or wondering around the house when star's asleep. It was good talking,discussing and disturbing the big brothers though! Yaiks! And at night, all those who were at navin's place yesterday are meeting up for midnight movie. Me, im not joining in.
And so, here's the updates most of you been personaly asking me for.
Monday, June 18, 2007
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Dear Precious,
You need to let go of your past completely ;
before you can fully experience your present and future.
I need to start loving and that's just what I want to do.
Experiences and memories have made me so cold, so numb.
I'll fill mine,yours and everyone's heart with so much of warmth and love if you let me.
Even then so, I can't let go.
I cant fix whats broken.
I just can't love anyone.
No one can ever love me either.
Trying to open these tiny doors of my heart but it' seems to be locked, forever.
well maybe I can play pretend and continue to cheat myself.
Sunday, June 17, 2007
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Dear precious,
(160607)
Woke up and headed to the boyfriend's place. Mummy gave me breakfast+lunch and then we headed for movie. Seven of us. As promised we caught Shrek 3. Personally I felt the movie was good! The bfs' sisters were having a blast and it felt so good to see the smile on each and everyone of their faces. After shrek, I decided on arcade! Indeed, arcade was sooo fun!! On our way out we went to hunt for handphone pouch. So the five females headed back home while the two guys headed to buy the food. Got home and ate, played card games and off we were,for home.
I received an unexpected kiss from both the sisters on my cheek and a superduper warm hug. That moment, I didnt want it to end, I felt like staying on. I started missing them right away. Just three days of spending time together and we got so attached, I'll treasure the memories and just hope to meet them again. Missing chandrella & Ranjini many many. If my mom allowed me to travel abroad, I'll spend my time going over to meet mummy and the two sweeties, really!
Im excitely waiting for the pictures! Oh well, thank you star for allowing me to have a great experience.
kept you in silence, I couldnt see what I was doing, how I was reacting. open up my heart and made me pour. Thank you for being the one who understands me very well. Alright so that's all about the 16th. Today it's father's day. HAPPY FATHER'S DAY DADDY! You rock stuff. Last year's celeb was awesome but this year no celebrations. It is sad but I dont need grand celebrations to show that I love you. You have never failed to encourage me whenever I wanted to try out something new. thankyou for giving me such a beautiful life.
In life, the hardest thing to do, is to patch a broken relationship. But even harder it is, the pain you feel when a relationship breaks up. But the hardest of all is 1) Loving someone who doesnt love you. 2) Uncertainities about feelings 3) Loving someone and keeping silent.
beacause of you, because of you.
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Saturday, June 16, 2007
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15th
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Dear Precious,
Woke up and went shopping in the MORNING. Bought two gifts each for the girls and since it was pouring cats and dogs, I sat down somewhere isolated to wrap the gifts. Jessie kept calling me and laughing at me! (because its raining and bf&family were heading to sentosa) Meanie! By the time I reached the cousin's place the rain stopped (:
Mummy made me breakfast, and then we were off to sentosa! Took a cable car from mountfaber. While waiting for it there were other tourist who started asking me questions like where I'm from and etc.
man : where are you from?
me: singapore
man: you're a singaporean?
me: yes.
man: you must have seen sentosa before right?
me: yes but my 'siblings' have not so im here
man: you sure you're singaporean? do you speak hindi?
me: i am singaporean no i dont speak hindi.
til mummy had to tell him that I actually wasnt her child and when the bf opened his mouth and said i was his gf then he stopped his question but again he went.
you totally singaporean? you sure?
OMFG. Perhaps I looked so excited like a tourist?
so the 6 of us took the cable car & now I know why the bf didnt want to take the cable car (lips sealed) Oh well the girls were so so very excited, that smile and joy in the atmosphere, bliss!
Since sg citizens gets half price for cable car and since we have ratha who is a staff we had great deals everywhere. We had a super great deal for luge&skyride from a tourist who didnt want her tickets. uh huh! I cant further elaborate the day, but I must say it was superduper fun :D
smiles,laughters,joy,love in the air. Oh well at least only til someone had to say something to spoil my mood
COMPLETELY. I felt so sucky even til this very moment, super sucky. Sometimes,people say things to just test you or see your reaction or just for fun but most of the times they fail to see how it will impact you even if they say the things they didnt mean.
So headed back to the cousin's place, waited for mummy to cook me vegetarian food,yummy!
&then waited for my cab. So the bf gave me mars bar again. Im stocking it up in the fridge cause Im not allowed to eat. my throat hurts. but the bar, didnt make me smile just not yesterday! :(
today will be movie day! excites!
Friday, June 15, 2007
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14th june
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Dear Precious,
Woke up and cabbed down to ngeeannpoly for the bf's graduation. First time meeting the mum and sisters and I was at such a hot spot! He wasnt there so I just walked up to them talked and brought them through the graduation ceremony. We were literally smiling,blusing,looking and finding stuff to talk about - like new friends. hah! But the moment was priceless. Then first bro joined us. the bf looked so so very cute! OMFG! *eyes fixed on you* haha!
So later at the end of the graduation we headed to the reception and met Uma and my bf. we camwhored and cabbed down to his place. Uma didnt know he shifted place and whenever we talk about his house she always thought it was the old house.. the new house is like beautiful and we wanted to surprise and waited exactly one month for the day to come. 14th. The start of all good happenings, perhaps. I brought her there saying
I had to take something from my friend before we headed to my bf's house. And when the door opened she was like ''Ahhh you shifted house!!! and quickly got in to check it out, gorgeous!- the hse"
Uh-huh crapped around then the bf and his mum and I headed to shop. Bought lunch and she and I headed to do a little marketting at the ntuc, just the two of us. (: After lunch Uma left for home.. Okay, I continued to spent my day there with the girls. We were enjoying ourselves and then we were off to the bf's cousin's place. Cabbed down there and the girls were having a crazy moment. Bigbullies! Huuuu!
I couldnt eat aunty's cookings although i was craving for it cause Im a vegan. So they prepared something simple and nice for me and I enjoyed it. and and and i headed back with the bf's brother and cousin. actually i missed out the impt part of the entry. so here it goes.
its the 14th. bf's grad. my results and big day. Can anything bad happen on 14th? Doubt so.
I PASSED MY EXAMINATIONS. YES EFFING BUSINESS STATISTICS TOO. Actually I was already prepared to fail and started revising my stats, waste of time!
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13th june
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Dear Precious,
Woke up and headed for my friend's mother's funeral. So it says it all still another quite bad day for a start and perhaps 14th will mark the last bad day after the results! So headed there with Mokan - maybe im stubborn, actually im not err im still at it!
Headed to AIA building with Jolene and then to queensway shopping centre. It was fun, really. And then we headed down to vivo but we were hourssss early to meet the clique i last met on the last day of exams. I miss them way too much and was definitely super excited to meet them cause ive missed over 3 4 5 6 ? outings. Anyhoo we didnt know what to do in the meantime andddd so we rode on the cable car! So random. But definitely was a blast!
Later in the evening we met the clique and had choco fondue.I loved it so much. Although im not allowed to eat sweet stuff I couldnt resist temptations especially when its chocolate! Hahh. Then we headed for fantastic 4. MUST WATCH! It was a good movie and we enjoyed it.
start of the rainbow days yet only 14th can confirm it.
Monday, June 11, 2007
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Dear Precious,
Stormy days aint over, nevertheless I really look forward to the rainbow days.cloudy star nights and bright sunshine in the mornings. So finally, I consulted the doctor this morning after suffering the whole night. Polyclinic doctors,sometimes really get on my nerves. Maybe not just polyclinic doctors, simply doctors or people who dont do their work deligently. I could barely understand what she was speaking, she and her philiphino accent. She hardly bothered to examine me and claimed I was normal. She didnt check anything and was busy writing a referral letter to the hospital. " Being normal gave me so much of pain throughout the whole night huh? " I asked myself.
Since I didnt need a medical certificate I just paid a child fee doctor consultation charge collected various medications and waited for hours for the referal letter. So to the hospital, to the specialist Id go on the 19th. As for now, my only concern 14th- results day. Ive got a really bad feeling about BS.
Saturday, June 09, 2007
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Dear Precious,
Mokan makes me cry.
Thursday, June 07, 2007
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I MISS YOU!
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Dear precious,
5days since I last had a proper sleep. 7 days to the results day and the boyfriend's graduation day and a remarkable special day.10days to draw the end of all these fastings. Less than 7days for the boyfriend to return from paradize! Less than 10days for me to get out to meet my oinkys and gfs!
My niece caught the hand food mouth thingy and now, ive caught a bit of it too!(who says adults cant catch the virus) This sucks, alot. So itchy I tell you. Since I been missing someone, Ive been watching the movie deepavali (:
I said are you afraid of heights and you said no you are not.
hey boy dont you lie to me tell me everything you fear..
I MISSSSSSSS.............
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Dear Precious,
I finally brought the laptop over to my cousin's place. I'm currently tapping on the internet available. Hah. I'm uber bored. The environment is
so still,quiet (except for the children's voices,laughter and cries). I decided to get back to work this saturday, I need to get out and maybe then I will feel way much better (:
So I have been a vegetarian since june3rd. Except for the one day when I broke the house rule for less than an hr when I sneaked out to have ham and cheese with the boyfriend. (eh, i really couldnt take it okay?) So being a vegetarian isnt all that bad when they know how to cook. Staying at my cousin's place= very good veg food! A total of 23 of us over night here everyday til the day all the prayers and etc will be over.
Right now, there's so much of emptyness ..cant turn back time but just have to take life the way i go. I havent been able to sleep. Nightmares, and good dreams which in turn makes me fighten for some reasons. I even dreamt that I had brain tumor. I woke up crying. When everyone is sleeping, im tossing and turning and my niece will be crying. The dog will bark and hide, the babies start crying. . . . .
it is a sign, babies,kids,animals can see things. Nevertheless, I love you and I miss you grandma (:
engulfed in the silence everywhere around me, goodbye everyone.
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
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Dear Precious,
Do you know the feeling, when you dont get to say the things you've always kept within you, and when you want to have your final says it's just way too late? To some people, I simply cant speak my heart out to them and tell them just what they mean to me. I am always looking for another day, one fine opportunity for me to express what I feel and tell them their worth. Whatever I feel for them, love like concern or even if they mean nothing or everything to me, I want to grab hold of this opportunity to those who reads my blog, and if I know you, I just want to say I do care for you and in one way or the other, you have certainly impacted my life, i' sure. Thank you for everything (: Oh well, I am thankful I didnt have to bear any forms of regrets because she knows I love her, I told her so. Now that you go, you rest in peace, I know you are happier up there.
& so I told the boyfriend that
she visited me. Now I'm certain I wasn't hallucinating. It was just so real. Thanks for putting me to sleep. Thank you, I slept so comfortably and I know it was you. Now, go on to your home. Just remember, we love you always!
ps : thanks Jolene, chris, trish for dropping by at the wake.
: Jessie,Intan, Pradheep and friends for ensuring ive been doing fine.
: So the boyfriend is off for his holiday! I cant wait til you get back!
: I want to runaway so far away somewhere, just me ALONE can sit watch the waters,
admire the outrageously gorgeous sky and live in my very own galaxy of dreams&you.
My galaxy is the only thing that keeps me empty, just a body with memories that seem to
disappear when with star! just a fly-away-soul that wants to reach out for the moon and feel
so much of love in the stone-hearted-coldheart. I believe I can rewrite everything in my
book. Now thank you for reading.
So I may not be contactable as I will be putting up at my cousin's place as the wake and aftermaths continue. This means i've to cross out two impt events, celx birthday and lata's chalet. sorry guys! Keep it real and have fun. god bless all.
Sunday, June 03, 2007
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she's gone.
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Dear Precious,
Examinations for this semester is finally over. I feel really good that it is over and ahead of me I have 11days before the results. Til then, I am hoping to be able to get back to work as soon as possible. As for todate(2ndjune) I missed my morning alarm to head to the polyclinic. I need to consult the doctors soon,really soon. Jessiebabes met me for lunch. The food was good. And the company was good too! So, I had a mini blast with my girlfriend!
Headed off to the hospital on my some what one month's routine. I didnt like things the way it was when I entered the ICU. I felt like getting out of the place almost immediately. That stiffness in the atmosphere. Sometimes, pain can never be described in words and so, the difficulty for me to express this feeling within. I felt so much better when I settled down for IceBlended Milo at the canteen with my sister and my aunt. From there, late that evening I headed to the boyfriend's place! We love cooking or rather making our own food so we bought Ham,Cheese,Tuna in Mayo and bread. Guessed it right! Ham and cheese tuna bread! But at this time of the day he is eating it alone, because we ended up eating fried rice and choco. So, how was I spending my night?
I WATCHED 300! Since I couldnt experience the theatre system in the singapore theatres just because im not considered 18 yet since I havent passed my birthday and because I couldnt sneak into theatres like most of my juniors did, I'm smaller in size. So the boyfriend made it possible! Like a mini theatre in the house with extra loud loud speakers. THANK YOU SO MUCH
you knew just how much I wanted to catch the movie,
then. I HOPE YOU LIKED THE "BABYBOY" thingy! =D
So had a short good chat with Faizal on my trip back home. Thanks for staying up just to ensure that I reached home safely. And for now, I miss all my friends. Signing off, Danny misses me, below is the prove.(this is definitely very random, Im bored!)
Saturday, June 02, 2007
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Dont speak, cause everything will be okay
Dont speak, cause everything will be okay