Friday, March 28, 2008
about:
DRUNK MOMENTS
author:EXQUISIE FEMME
Dearest,
I wish I could, sit by the waters and dream my life away. And im starting to wonder, if there is anybody who really reads this blog. it's so dead unlikes before.
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
about:
YOU
author:EXQUISIE FEMME
Dearest,
it is true, i've never been this way before.
it is true, that i come clean to you, completely open
because i dont hide anything from you, at all.
you're my diary, just in a different way...
cause i always verbally rant every single thing to you
and at the end of the day,
i feel like i'm done with the ranting
that i dont even need to blog.
it is true, that a straight-forward person became completely shut silent.
there always is a reason.
even if i never felt THAT way,
i never could express myself
because
when you know you're going to lose someone
you'd rather keep your mouth shut
and not say a single thing
just try to wipe the tears away
and force a smile
because at the very end of the day,
the person might want to walk away to move on
and either way, right or wrong
you know you're going to lose the person. .
people after you come looking for love
and they enjoy your company
and its ever so easy to just keep moving on,
walking away from you, for them
because, they came for love.
(I am no one to judge,agreed)
PERHAPS?
I came looking for you.
Looking for a person who will look out for me..
looking for someone to share my everything with
i came looking for something that reminded me, of me
and that is why, I cant just walk away.
Im honest, even this moment,
i've tried and im tired.
"no one understands, no one truly understood, not now not before.. no one at all"
Monday, March 24, 2008
about:
author:EXQUISIE FEMME
Friday.
Good friday was good. Apart from heading to church at 7plus in the morning and returning home to have boredom screaming at my face - theboy got me out when I could've been sitting on my own at wcp enjoying the beauty of nature. Headed to town with him, kish, slick and sand! We went to cine level9, and playyed taboooooo. It was definitely very fun and id say, the best team is WE GIRLS(:
Saturday.
It was the girls day out and the only person missing was Sara! So the five of us heading to bugis to shop! We've each got a new similar top, bimbotic? lol. Decided to walk to PS. So we walked til little India and it started to pour and we got drenched head to toe. Fish was romantic enough to hug me whereas sand was disgusted. Ps:the best thing to do in the rain, is to hug or kiss! try it!!
After lingering at PS met up with my siblings to catch STEP UP 2. it was awesome!!
Sunday.
Easter sunday. Church.Lunch with family. Finally went all the way out, travelled(which often, i'm very lazy to do) and met up with my puppy and bunny! Spent afew hours with them and later met theboy and kish. Today was the ride-g-around-singapore-day and I definitely was loving it. Biking everywhere we go (: the friday clan went over to fish's house and bid her goodbye as she was going to go for a short vietnam trip.Spent ample of time with my dearies. Headed to the boy's place for awhile and later to kish's to catch the manu vs livrpl match. Like always, manutd won (: thankyou all for making today so special. love!
PS. I HATE THIS POST BECAUSE I FEEL IT MAKES NO SENSE!
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
about:
West Coast Park
author:EXQUISIE FEMME
Dearest,
West coast park, sunset.
After the construction, this place looks super beautiful.
I'd even dare to say, i'm starting to love it here more than the jurong lake.
It is worth creating some new memories.
I did say, I was with the wrong person in such a beautiful place.
I would have wished it was someone else...
and today, yesterday's memory so vivid.
It was one of the best nights with you after a long long time.
Thank you my darling oinky.
Monday, March 17, 2008
about:
author:EXQUISIE FEMME
Dearest,
Yesterday, saturday..
was a long day. I did not sleep since thursday and was grey's anatomy marathoning and had my little cousin and aryan disturbing me through the whole morning. Spent some good time and rushed to meet Sindhu & Tasha at town. It was good. Our first time meeting after 3 such meet ups failed for whatever reasons. Nevertheless, I had so much of fun. We walked to cityhall from town and slacked after everything was over. Sindhu's like my shadow, maybe not exactly one that's walking with me,although she actually is but probably one who's life events are just similar to mine. Ironic.
I loved the water,the candyfloss,you and ciggs. oh and of course, pictures.
Headed to the temple later on with Karthigesan and Priya and had a good catch up there. So he isnt shy anymore and we girls just love tagteams. I sometimes sit to wonder how friendship grows with time. It's just a simple gesture that starts it,perhaps. Karthig's been a really good friend for about 6-7 years now. Beautiful....
I loved the way ya'll said no, when i wanted it to rain, and how your faces were gloomy when it rained the moment i said it would. i love the rain...
Met the boy for less than an hour to pass him the stuffs after the archana i did for him. Life just has to get better right.Seek not much,but just the presence cause it-alone makes up everything.
What's before me is unknown but more afraid than anxious I am
sometimes, to think about how everyone's roads will go separate ways . . . .
forever.
Friday, March 14, 2008
about:
GRADUATED!
author:EXQUISIE FEMME
Dearest,
So everyone knows I was the one standing outside the exam hall still flipping through the notes hoping to absorb at least abit so that I may pass. And I also was the one who came out of the exam hall within or right after the first hour of the 3hour-papers and .. okay I shall not go back 'into' the ugly moments . .
I'VE GRADUATED!
That's all the matters with relatively good grades.
I'm completely elated! We've made it friends!
For whoever it may concern ; you've got one more chance to prove yourself
I'm got good faith in ya'll.
I'm 18years old and 4 months old
I've got my diploma on my hand.
First achievment,first step to my success stone.
Now, i can dream dream dream.
p.s i love you. thanks for the support
Thursday, March 13, 2008
about:
13th march
author:EXQUISIE FEMME
Dearest,
Now is 2.43am it's already the 13th march. One more day and I must face the judgement day. I'm honestly freaking out cause only I know what I was going through during revisions. Nevertheless I'm still hoping, keeping my fingers crossed that my friends and I would pass together this friday itself. I bet you know how neverous and quite not anxious i am about the 14th. goodluck!
Seminar was good. I totally understood everything, the strategic plans and everything and I found it interesting pretty captivating making my brains work to think . . sarvesh on the other hand was dead bored and lost. However, i'm pretty much sure, this plan wouldnt all exactly be successful. We got stalked. It's getting really annoying to be stalked by a complete stranger. Not my first encounter but im starting to think, why me. Why when Im around or anything related to me. Easy target? I hope not cause i'm seriously going to vent it all out on any new stalkers. I still remember what dheep told me after my first such encounter. Dont try me, you so going to regret! HAHAHAHAHAHA!
Cravings for prata led us to yishun to meet up with kish,sis and cousin. Yummy eggcheeseprata!! Had a good talk and headed back home. I really want to pass and graduate cause im not in study mood anymore. I really want to have some good catch up with Mokan, Jessie,Intan and a few others like how i managed to catch up with Asrenee earlier on. And, i really want to meet up with Sindhu my little one! I hope our 3rd try to meet up will be successful!
p.s what you do not know is what you've yet to know.
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
about:
2days to the 14th
author:EXQUISIE FEMME
Dearest,
Yesterday was a pretty much unplanned day. I'm all so dark and burnt since the camp and the flu and cold weather isn't of any good. Boredom is all I see in the silence. Well the only good thing I did was to drag myself to woodlands to meet theboy and there, I bumped into Latz,Pavitra and Hema. It's beeeen long, actually not. The last time we met was thaipusam or vday which ever, the latter. And very much unexpectedly, Geshy was there too.
I met theboy and we caught 10,000 bc! Yepp! I very much wanted to catch that after comtemplating between water horse and 10 000 bc last week. So now, i've caught both the movies!Next up shall be, Step up2 and Horton please!
Two more days and it'll be results. It'll also mark the 365th day of a beautiful journey I
had been through. I just hope it'll be good news otherwise, it'll be a double emotional crasher!
Til then, I hope tonight's seminar will give me a scholorship!
Monday, March 10, 2008
about:
one week break, chalet n camp
author:EXQUISIE FEMME
Dearest,
One week break was indeed what I needed. Spent the first few days at Beach club, Chalet with my coursemates. It may/not be the last time we'd gather together like this. I had a great time getting to know some of them who I never spoke to, spending lots of time with those i've always treasured and this is when I'd say, I'm truly going to miss them all. And it includes SARA!
After checking out I brought the boy to the doctor and spent some time with him. We bought a tent(: I'm waiting for the picnic and late night outs now under the clear blue sky with millions of stars and of course the brightest one by my side. We together with Kish and Sarvesh caught the movie ' waterhorse'. Not bad, i'd say. So the following day was camp.
I had my girlfriends there. Honestly, it was pretty monotonous. Camp spirits were kinda low but being in kish's group with Usha and Misha was good! I was a glutton on all the nights eating macs at the wrong time of the night. East coast was fun though. The sorching sun dampened the mood though! It was seriously super super sorching hot and it literally was burning our skins. Most of us were dehydrating because it was seriously, dry and hot. I couldnt' even sit in the tent of 5minutes cause it was too hot even in there. Returning back to school, with such dark skin and wobbly legs, I indeed had a pleasant surprise. Guessed it right, it was the boy! We camped awhile more and I had my eyes on the DJ who was non other than the boy himself. After everything we all had macs and slacked past midnight.
Sue, fish and I were sitting on the stairs and later everyone started joining in and they were singing talking and slacking through the night. I was getting sick . . i could feel it and so I headed to catch some sleep with fish. It was all good. The boy woke me up at 5ish am and we left for home. Biking home in the cold cold morning was just wonderful even though half the time i was just clinging onto him and falling asleep, i love bike rides.
Now, that was a long bragging post just so those who've been saying I havent updated have a good time reading! well then, one whole week of being out of the house was sufficient and i'm down with flu and fever now tht will keep me indoors for some time.14th is coming up. Going to be the results day, and also some kinda emotional ride day. I got pull myself together, cause I'm stronggggggg!
P.S : I won you in UNO (: now we' know it we're both winners.
Monday, March 03, 2008
about:
author:EXQUISIE FEMME
Dearest,
Exams are finally over. It's been a seriously tough time for me. With a family member being really ill, things just not fitting in place, issues rising . . life has its downs and mine is always during exams I assume. Going to exam and coming out was different. For once, i was undergoing an emotional battle not to be calling someone and hearing that person give me the final boost of confidence. Battling so hard emotionally and i did make it but it really was distracting. I'm lucky to have great siblings who pick me up each time my mind decided to 'give up' on the examinations cause of everything that was happening. They cried with me shared our problems together and lifted me just abit, good enough then falling all at once!
After the paper, went bowling and it was so much of funness at orchid country club! Kishore's mummy and sister,su,ush,fish,san,dheep,puva,vin,kish,muru,rosh . . . i hope i never leaved out anyone!! I'm going to be away for a short, secret getaway in and out of singapore!
&boy,I appreciate you.
til then.
PS. ILOVEYOU.
