Saturday, June 28, 2008
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Happy 19th birthday darling INTAN!
It's been good 6 years now and with no regrets, i'm glad we've been friends.
Wish you all the best in everything you do.
You've been such a bundle of joy.
I recall your last year's birthday and i wish you had a blast this year as well.
('',)
On the other hand, now that i've got ample of time to blog.
Happy 18th very very belated birthday to latashy!
You're finally legal and we shall wait for ya cousins and start enjoying!!
I hope i havent missed out on anything important.
It's gonna be yet- another working day tml.
til then,
goodnight precious.
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Dearest precious,
Its not my career its just a job right. So it's totally worth it to pull through this hard-ass moment get over with the learning have everything at my finertips and work will roll along easy. I'm sure. its the weekends.. and i feel like throwing a cow at everyone.. those who dont eat beef, you can drink the mik. anyhow, i am so not motivated to work on weekends! Can i have a switch in job?
*slaps*
Okay so i've passed my h t c to dheep. Its to be- sold. *goodbye baby* Old lady's 65th birthday celeb is coming. it falls on the same day as my nephew's naming ceremony.. i dont know which one to go for. besides, i dont even know if id be entitled to an off day.
so he's the 5th to the list... 5th.. to call me aunty.
Friday, June 27, 2008
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Changed my hp from n6060 to htc touch!
but im still ever wanting my w960i,,
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
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dearest,
nine days of sleepless nights.
cry til eyes dry.
pretend each day is completely alright.
smile laugh and even dare to smile when deep inside its just pain.
each word, action and gestures filled with harshness and pure pain.
she just smiles and continues.
now she knows.
she's not even worth a hug.its the least she couldve asked for .. for being left empty ..
unspoken of... hurt... well
that clearly reminds her the words said- piercing through ...
"i havent seen you for awhile"
" i havent seen my mom for so many days.. i miss her...you're not my mother. so, who are you?" sacarscm. who in world is she. no body.
nooooooo body.
SO FUCKING NOBODY.
SO FUCKING NOT WORTH FIVE CENTS OR EVEN A HUG.
SO FUCKING NOT WORTH IT TO SMILE AT.
SO FUCKING NOT WORTH IT CAUSE IM NOT A SHOWCASE GIRL YOU NEED NOT IMPRESS.
Monday, June 23, 2008
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Dearest,
Caugh the i n c r e d i b l e h u l k today. Pretty much hair-standing sound effects i'd say. the typical next- king kong movie kinda. well, i suppose i should like everything associated with GREEN. besides, i miss my green long sleeve top which is m i s s i n g.
ngeeeeeeeeeann's show yesterday was SUPERB. totally! (:
keep me strong.
Friday, June 20, 2008
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dearest precious,
why why why? serving customer.. everything seemed fine... til my hp beeped.. it was a message. little did i know that opening it that very moment would have caused me to breakdown. little did i know that id have broken down infront of EVERYONE.
toilet-ed for more than an hour sobbing away. Couldnt hld myself together. what has happened to me. so brittle. i couldnt force myself out of the toilet.which customer would want to look at my crying face. yesterday sucked. i apologize for the inconvenience caused.
sometimes, people just dont care.
Monday, June 16, 2008
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Dearest precious,
dinner at ichiban sushi last night was awesome followed by a thrilling movie ' the happening'. the days now seem longer than before and life feels really empty. there's hardly anything to do and i feel terribly incomplete. its just boredom. monotonous...
Past few days been pretty weird for some odd reasons. Well, all i can make out of it is "fat,IRRITATING, fat fat fat IRRITATING,annoying,fat,ugly,very ugly,fat,fat,fat,fat, very funny looking,irrtiating, *munnthikithey* fat,fat,irritating, seein smone, fat, fat, fat, irritating, and all the harsh unhappy irritated not interested voice tones and gestures knowingly or unknowingly ......ugh just kills the self esteem totally. Scoldings.. haaaa.So, when the days seem longer and with shift works and less or no time for proper communications or less time for future meet ups its always just fear. And the tear tap just wouldnt stop, would it.
No replies.. no calls.. no nothing... not worth the 5cents.
tell me im wrong to feel this way.
and i'll acceptingly be sorry.
Sunday, June 15, 2008
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dearest,
when he looks at you, he realized how beautiful you are even if you're ugly to the rest of the world. you're beautiful in his eyes. when he talks to you, he watches your eye speak. he smiles for the beautiful lips. he sees the structure of your lips.. as beautiful... he looks at you closely and detailed. everything counts. everything about you, is beautiful to him.. the way you talk, smile look.. stare... sneeze.. sleep.. laugh... walk.. everything. even when you dont speak a word... u're beautiful... and it hurts so much.. when you know.. the person you adore the most doesnt see you this way and he makes you feel inferior to others unknowingly. it hurts the most when you know, he'd rather make someone else feel beautiful than you.
how everyone wishes they'd find someone who makes them feel beautiful right? :D
Thursday, June 12, 2008
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Dearest,
I'm planning to
move. Anyhow, on the 10th got my pay! Met max and we headed for dinner. It was located at little india's khansana? I'm not very sure of the name! Good southern and northern indian food. Yummy Yummy. Cabbed back home for a nightful of cuddles.
At work now! It's training and its good because this trainer is good. There's a test later and I know i'd flop it but its okay. I've both my 2girls on my left and right and we might pull through it.
heh! Ooooh whee! I'm feeeeling temperementally high. too much of sportade maybe.
i need extra dosage of G O S S I P G I R L S!
different .. sudden changes in reaction and body language. mind speaks of the answer the heart skips to think otherwise. well if its happening all over. . . id cry for yesterdays for the happy faced people.
Friday, June 06, 2008
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Dearest precious,
So recently, Jeev was in sg and we met him up. twice, i reckon. It was good. He's so funny and i bet they had a great time bullying me. komalas ice cream is still very yummy! :D
we headed to harry's for drinks. Yesterday was store meeting and we had dinner at sudanese indon rest. yummmy. yum.
this is completely pointless but who cares, its grad today. :D
Tuesday, June 03, 2008
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Dearest,
thanks for coming down to workplace and having lunch with me :D
Monday, June 02, 2008
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Walking in circles over and over again.
I've realized only today, as I watched time past and let tear roll down my fat cheeks.
I'm like a jigsaw part trying to be fixed into the jigsaw puzzle,
just that all along i was on the wrong puzzle.
why do I go each and every extra mile even when at the very end of the day,
i turn in, incomplete?
It's back to work routine tmr and i hope i'd get stronger by the day.
and here's a song to self.
" i'd give my all, to have... just one more night with you"
Sunday, June 01, 2008
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Dearest Precious,
Work just traps you in her hetic schedules and she just dries you of all your energy. Now I'm wishing I had taken up an office job because its seriously manyfolds better. TOTALLY. At least i'd have my every weekends to myself and i dont have to work on public holidays and id end work almost the same time every single working day. hell yeah, im complaining.
She traps me up each time and every minute- delayed works me out and i'd be placed on an edge. It's quite an emotional rollercoaster ride. Each free seconds I have, i'd wish to do something I'd prefer doing and should I get turned down .. . it feels horrible. But perhaps, it's all in the game of life the feelings thoughts... situations... It feels like, now that my ample of free time is taken up working ... in that many many hours im losing out on something else... and eventually, i'm lose it...
It's been two weeks now and I haven't adapted to it. I'm supposing it'll all go fine. I'm waiting for the pay!! I miss all of you. This up coming friday the 6th is going to be one of the special days in my life with the impt people in my life (:
So yesterday was spent eating cheese stick breads and falling asleep infront of the tv o'vr at his place til l'tr at night headed down to have dinner @ komalas with shrek and max. I love the ice cream there! After they had a really good time bullying me we headed down to chijmes- harry's.
Coconut-ini was really really nice and a little strong.heh.
sugar rushes dreams. imu.
G! from GG (not georgina from gossip girls)
xoxoxo
